Showing posts with label existence. Show all posts
Showing posts with label existence. Show all posts

Tuesday, June 16, 2015

To Survive, Perchance To Thrive

One's raison d'etre is exactly one's own. I'm reminded of a time when I was at a friend's home and his sister complained about not knowing her purpose in life. to which her father responded sharply, "Your purpose in life is to not die. Everything else is gravy."

Gravy...

To reduce it to the most basic level, human beings seek to survive and to thrive. Indeed, faced with an inability to thrive on his or her own terms, one might contemplate suicide. We know this from being observers of humanity. Of course, 'on one's own terms' is key here. I've been told on several occasions that my spartan lifestyle is quite unappealing. I, of course, find it satisfying, but I can accept that it wouldn't be for most.

We're binary thinkers by nature, yes or no, right or wrong, good or bad, one or zero... But any rational human being should accept that these are relative concepts, not absolute, universal ones. Still, we'd like to put it in some kind of mathematical framework if we could.

Understanding survival is simple; there are two states: life and death. You're either in one or the other as far as we can tell from our human viewpoint. For the sake of simplicity, let's assume that the following is true:

Signs of death or strong indications that a warm-blooded animal is no longer alive are:
  • Cessation of breathing - a
  • Cardiac arrest (no pulse) - b
  • Pallor mortis, paleness which happens in the 15–120 minutes after death - c
  • Livor mortis, a settling of the blood in the lower (dependent) portion of the body - d
  • Algor mortis, the reduction in body temperature following death. This is generally a steady decline until matching ambient temperature - e
  • Rigor mortis, the limbs of the corpse become stiff (Latin rigor) and difficult to move or manipulate - f
  • Decomposition, the reduction into simpler forms of matter, accompanied by a strong, unpleasant odor - g
We can then say that if none of the above conditions are met for a certain person, then that person is alive, meaning he or she is surviving.

So now, again for the sake of simplicity, let's define a state of death where only if all of the above conditions are true, then there is a state of death. And, let's call this state 'non-survival.' Sounds silly, but it makes things simple. We can represent this as a variable x, where x is a state function, x(a, b, c, d, e, f, g). If any of the conditions a, b, c, d, e, f or g are true, we assign that condition variable a value of 1, and if not true, a value of 0. For example, if a person is still breathing, a = 0, and if they're not breathing, a = 1. So, if we have x(1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1), we have a state of death. We can define a general life/death state as

                                    $\delta\left ( x \right ) = \begin{Bmatrix}
                                    0, & x(1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1)\\
                                    1,& x\neq x(1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1)
                                    \end{Bmatrix}$

where $\delta \left ( x  \right )= 1$ means survival, and
$\delta \left ( x  \right )= 0$ means non-survival.

Can we construct a similar function for thriving? And, if we can do that, can we construct a single, combined function that expresses the two (survival and thriving) mathematically?

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

The Eternal Tangent

"What happened to you?"

*laughs
"I guess you think I'm weird, and if you're asking that question, then you think I acknowledge my own weirdness."

"Sorry, I don't want to say you're weird,..."

"Some people just look too long into the abyss, you know."

"Come on, speak to me like I'm an idiot here; I don't want to misunderstand anything."

"It's not that hard to understand... Look, everyone knows the poem about the road not taken, right? I mean, you know it, I'm sure of that."

"I know it."

"Well, if you go off the beaten path and travel too far, for too long... there's a good chance you're not going to make it back. Maybe you forgot how to get back. Maybe you don't want to go back... Maybe you don't even remember what "back there" is."

"So, you're saying you lost your way somehow?"

"No... No, I'm not saying that. I'm saying I'm one of those who don't want to go back. My eyes are wide open, brother."

"..."

"Look, lots of people go on a journey of self discovery, and at some point, maybe because they didn't like what they learned, or maybe because they didn't learn anything at all,... they just give up and go back to being the same old cunts they always were. I guess most people who embark on such a journey end up that way."

"So, you're saying you've reached some point of enlightenment?"

"I believe there are two rules everyone should follow...

  1. Know thyself, and
  2. To thine own self be true.
Most people think they've accomplished rule number one and just go about following rule number two. Most of the time, anyway...
But, those who really accomplish number one are few and far between. Many come close, but when they see themselves for what they are, it scares the shit out of them, and they end up denying it."

"So, you're one of the few who actually figured himself out, and the rest of us are just walking around blind?"

"I wouldn't say 'blind'... self delusional, yes. We spend so much time focusing on the self. Through years of accretion of sensory experiences, we have come to the conclusion that each and every one of us is somebody, when in fact, each of us is actually nobody. Of course, most people would deny that with every fiber of their being and go on following the programming."

"So, then what's the point? Why bother?"

"A kid doesn't turn down a trip to Disneyland just because it'll be over eight hours after it gets started. I enjoy falling asleep in a kayak on a calm lake on a summer day. I enjoy sexual experiences, I..."

"OK, I get it. Is there any Scotch left in that bottle?"

"Not much, but I've got another in the cupboard."

"You better get it out then..."

Sunday, July 13, 2014

Resolving Image Focus



It moved across the open space with unimpressive speed and he knew he would have it. As he closed in, a deep shadow appeared ahead and threatened to take it from him. As it scrambled for the blackness, he became aware of how shiny its black back was and with his peripheral vision, through a hole in the wall, he could see a few rays breaking through the clouds.

He balled up the towel and hurled it forward. It spread open as it dropped, falling right onto the cockroach and bringing its desperate plight to an end.

Thirty seconds later, it was back in the glass. They sat outside together until the daylight hours came to a close.

I suppose you're feeling quite satisfied right now.

I feel alright.

You've had that one for quite awhile now. Longer than usual.

There'll be others.

Sure. Well, probably...

...

Haven't you had enough of this?

What would you do without me?

...

He awoke some hours later in complete blackness. Nothing to be seen and no way to make it visible. But, it was there and without much fumbling, he put his hand around the glass and picked it up. He gave it a little shake and put it to his ear. From inside, the sound of little shuffling feet. He put it back down and before long he returned to his dreams.

When he next opened his eyes, there was enough light in the room to see the glass. It lay inside on its back. He picked the glass up and softly shook it knowing that the waves of doubt would soon be washing over him again.

A rare sigh passed his lips.
Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...